judged guilty

i heard it said once
that guilt is the feeling
you have when someone else
feels you have done something
wrong and you don’t agree but
you think maybe you should.
Either way you know you’ll
do it again.

i am guilty of
believing in goodness,
loving freely,
and embracing each moment;
i will do it again.


fading a little more each day
i wait to disappear.
and wait.
and wait.

i look around and see
my life passing without
me while I wait.
and wait.
and wait.

but am I really?
i think maybe I will start living
and then just wait,
and wait,
and wait!